What is in the head of a DigitalAngel now

I sit here and wonder about things that have passed in the last few months and years and to be honest I cant say I have ever truly been happy. There have been a couple of times when I thought I was only to screw things up. This is really no exception. Yet  I am currently with a man that blows my mind with everyday that we are together. He stays on an even keel no matter what when he is with me.  It is a known fact that we love each other. I wonder sometimes if he is in love with me anymore or if  he just loves me because that is how it really should be.  He started out and an avatar on imvu and then before I knew it became my best friend then the one that is apart of me. I am still very much in love with him as much as I love him. He takes my breath away with the little things he does.  The play fighting about melting in Texas all the way to the calling me to leave me a message because I asked him to. I didnt tell him what to say in it he just did it and I went wow.  Really it wasnt anything spectacular, just an i love you and well wishes.  It triggered my collapse.  I dont know why something that is so happy made me fall so hard.

I think it was the stark realization that I was screwing up and with my second avatar and I was losing myself.  The man that I cherish seeming distant to me, not because he wanted to but because his responsibility, dedication and obligations to his family gave into my misbegotten want.  He figured that if he gave me this request it would afford him the time to take care of his  family. It is rough being a girlfriend of a married man. Our relationship is not really a common it is more a complicated one.  He and I, have others.  He has his wife and she is my friend and my biggest supporter and we often gang up on him.  I have my solider who is off at war. I dont talk about him much but he is in my heart and mind always.

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Drama and such…….

You know I sit back here and I read everything I can and try to help anyone that needs it or wants it.  During my absence from here, I have been affected by more drama that I can handle in any life real or other wise. For the life of me I cant understand why people truly set out to play and hurt others.  In all honesty, I cant sit by when it hits close to home. Now you are saying Lexi what are you talking bout.  Well it is the drama that has been making me physically sick on sl.

Everywhere around me, my sl family is having break ups and being played and used. Well it is to the point that I have begun to fear for my own wonderful twenty two month relationship with my beloved Draco.  People say well Lexi it is only game. I dont believe that for a moment. Here is what I consider second life as.  A Virtual 3d social network where you can experience your fantasies and desires and for some find that it helps bridge the space gap between those who would be close if they were near each other in the flesh plane instead of the pixel one.  Draco and I are a good example of that in the flesh plane we are several thousand miles apart,  yet we have real emotions and thoughts and feelings.  And for the record I knew he was sick before he logged on today.  How that is an odd explaination that well not going into. He had the flu and he couldnt stay away because he knew I need him emotionally. (again another odd long story that doesnt really need to be explained other that the omnious awwww that would come with it followed by the yea right could you give us some of that crack you are smoking. and I dont do illegal drugs. )

I tell Draco that I am scared with the ration of negative crap going on that it will affect us and we will fall like everyone who admires the sheer fact that for almost two years we are still going strong. ( I love my Dragon because he is laid back) With this he looks at me and says so when are we doing the renewal ceremony? did we decide on the date?  Now I could have taken that as a dismissal and the start of drama. Instead I thought for amoment and realized that he was trying to tell me he isnt going anywhere nor are we in any stress or  danger other than his long absences.  His Flesh plane is well messed up really bad so he comes to me when he can.

It really bothers me when I sit back and watch the drama go on. If you dont want to be with the person just walk away and say no dont string them along or elope then a couple days later go back to the person you were with be fore you got involved with my family member.  In short, it makes me very irate and yes I get very analytical when I am irate.

Games are for children or imature people who get off on manipulation and control,  hence me calling said person accurately a Selfcentered Selfish Brat. I am sorry if that sounds harsh but in all honesty it wasnt hard enough. I even told this one to take biggest bitch out of their profile. Why because they are acting like a child  that when they get in over their head and doesnt want to be responsible for the actions or emotions that they themselves do.

Sorry that has took so long to get out a new post…..

Lots of things have been going on in the world of Alexashandra and DigitalAngels Creations. First we have had Moonlyyte Productions join us (*huggles to the Moonbeam*)  I have been creating new things like mad. I have a new series of fractal art for textures including my latest today. All of my art is posted at http://alexashandra.deviantart.com. The newest stuff is being shown here. I have decided I like to make good beds for DAC.  I have been working on may new pictures since I have been working on this post. I will add more tomorrow. I think it is time for sleep.

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My new texture

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More of my experiments with Photoshop

DigitalAngels and what we are about.

This is the post that I felt I needed to put in here. DigitalAngels Creations is something very important to me. One it is a group of friends getting together and making our own mark on the world of  Second life. this is done through content creation offering of the different services that we are good at.  I know there are thousands of groups just like ours.  We have a commitment to make a good honest living there without having to deal with the standard dancing /club jobs. 

The things that we already have in world and in place.  

Some of our services:

Personal Shopping.  This is for those people that dont have the time or cant seem to find what they are looking for. We go out and find the item take our client to it or if it is a transferable item receive the funds and by it for them.  We charge a small fee for finding it.  The fee varies and for newbies we tend to go very easy since they usually dont have alot of  lindens to begin with. We also find it for the best price possible.

Dance Chim Construction assistance. Taking people around to the different Dancing animation vendors and then helping them put a chimera together that they can use and share with their friends. It is a personalized service to the client themselves. 

I also do style consulting for avatar and home. I love to interior decorate and I have a flair for find a good look. With my research abilities I am able to help people put a good face forward and have a beautiful home to show off. I believe in low prims. There are many wonderful low prim choices that look really great and they are not always expensive. 

Things for the future Possible Avatar photography with one of our Partner Moonlyyte Productions and my dear sister Moonlyyte Axelrad . My Brother Quyten Yalin has a flair for it too. 

DigitalAngel Creations Furniture is coming very soon I have been building tons on making furniture. These will have custom textures made from DigitalAngels Partners and Myself and Draco.  We have a wonderful Partner named Uther Vlod0vic who is good support and possible having a nice place to sell our good s

The new day dawns.

 

Draco and Alexa at Avalounge.

 

 

 

Yesterday was interesting in my secondlife.  For several reasons,  First of which I got to spend time with the dear darling husband Draco. He liked our new company and is even rolling up his sleeves to help out untill he learns more to be a bigger part of it.  I put him to work . It helps him be a part of  things when he cant be around as much as he would like to. Real life does that to all of us these days.  He was just thrilled to help me set poses in the new couch I made.  I am really learning alot building on second life.  It is alot easier then building on imvu. 

I will not use this blog to bash IMVU or even really do anything more than mention it.  I do owe that place one small bit of credit or two. I made some great friends there. It is where I met Draco.  There is still a version of DigitalAngels Creations there.  It is also where I found my Creative streak  or I should say a new outlet for it.

Well now that I have digressed off the path that I wanted to be on. I will get back to it.  I spent the time with Draco which was way cool. Then I went to work in the real world. And saw my bestests friends Jo Lineker and Quyten Yalin.  we work together and it is alot of  fun. Thing was we talked about the future of  DAC and how we were all going to put it together.  That is for another post. 

Then I got home and got back in world.  That is when my friend Steve123 Jayaram got on.  He is the first client that DigitalAngels truly ever had.  He dances for a wonderful place called the Diamond Mine.  It is a Ladies club with lots of services. I go there for the guys and to dance every once in a while with one of them.  Quyten is also a dancer there and I am very supportive of my ‘Second Life Brothers’. He wanted to go for a little shopping trip. So I took him to the place he wanted to go. Then we hung out and he made adjustments and tried it out. He was throughly pleased with it.  Then we went to the club where he works and had fun till SL started crashing got back in and well it was the end of the night so I thought. Said good night to Steve he is such a sweetie.  And was going to go get hugs from my friend Whet who also worked at the club and maybe help him build alittle. 

Whet Snoodle is an interesting and very talented man. He is alot of fun when he gets in trouble while he is building but I think he will eventually get his highrise right  While I was testing out his teleportation system, a nice lady sends me a message. Asking me if I wanted to work for her.  Now mind you I had just acouple of weeks ago retired from SL dancing and stripping. but with the current state of funds and finances I decided to come out of it one more time.  So now I am working at a place call The Cut.  It appears to be a classy joint with no explict emoting. I was relieved when she said that to me because well I am married and dont really want to talk that way to anyone other than my beloved Dragon Draco.  not that he is into that lol.   Then I said good night to Whet and went on my way. 

I have big plans in store for this blog. and hopefully many will come along for the ride.  Feel free to let me know if there is anything you would like to see here or any subject that can be addressed. I read all comments and even respond.

Hello to all from Alexashandra Palen.

I came to word press because I thought it would be a better place to launch all the things that I have going on with my second life. I am Alexashandra Palen.  I am a wife, a mother, a Designer,  artist, friend and lover.  I love to dance and watch my friends dance too.  I am married in second life to my real life best friend Dracoonious Dagger. No matter where I am I know I am never alone thanks to him.  He knows that  someone out there cares for him.  

I own a company on second life called DigitalAngels Creations or DAC for  short. 2009 is the year we start showing the world who and what we are.  Draco is my co owner in this and supports me through what ever we do.  I have good partners in this as well.  DAC is not just about content creation.  It is also about services and not having to make a buck using sex or dancing to get there.  If you need to find that special item for yourself or your friends  contact us.